A realization...

My friendships have changed over the past year. I didn't think that was going to happen. You think that watching all those television shows with those morals about sticking with those you true to themselves and not the phonies would be easy to follow. It's not to tell you the truth. Often times those phonies are really good at hiding who they truly are. I learned this about an old friend of mine. I thought she was fairly honest and good. She wasn't. She was unkind and rude, and had absolutely no morals of any kind. For some reason I thought she did. The sad part was that her unkindness rubbed off on me. I was a bitch to those around me, and would often say hateful things behind other's back. I really hate that about myself. It's not me. I'm glad I'm rid of her though. It was like a bad poison coursing through my system. Slowly eating away, until there was nothing left. It's gone now, and my old self is growing again. Newer, and stronger and better than before. I am back with an old friend of mine. I used to not like her(because I was hanging out with the other friend who didn't approve of her) It's better than ever. We drink tea, and hang around her house being total nerds. There is none of this frivolous behavior. It's a relief. I'm glad I'm back.